Oh, this heart of mine. It holds so many things. Sometimes, it's hard to sort it all out. In my heart lives so much longing, compassion, anxiousness and love. Muddling through all those emotions often just brings confusion. Why? What does my heart seek after? Why does it often seem to be in a state of unrest?
I'm sure many of us can say we experience this. Our hearts just get filled up with so much. I believe the deepest longing our hearts harbor is the desire to be closer to our Lord and to one another. I believe, we all have that place down deep that just wants to be loved and accepted for who we are...right now!! I believe many of us desire a place where real love and kindness flow all around us... just because it's the right thing.
I often carry this question down deep...."why can't we live in a world where we are kind to one another?" It's a question that often baffles me because I truly don't understand why. Isn't it easier to simply be kind and walk away? However, we live in a world where we can express ourselves in many different ways. In this day of Social Media, it is so easy to share our thoughts without facing one another. I suppose one could say it's easier to state our opinion to someone via our fingertips rather than face to face. It's easier to be BOLD and say something we wouldn't necessarily say to someone face to face. Right? Although I love Social Media and think it's an awesome way to "connect" with others and to share many things, there is a standard I set for myself before I post anything. If I would not speak it out loud to someone, face to face, I will not type it on Social Media...or share it.
I've been told by some that I live in a fantasy world. I suppose they are right.....at least by earthly standards. But the question I carry in my heart still lingers....."why can't we live in a world where we are kind to one another?" Don't all our hearts long for that simple kindness and love? So, wouldn't we want it to begin with us? As I grapple with this, my heart reminds me of all those times I am unkind, gossipy and selfish. It reminds me of how these sinful qualities, that I possess, rear their ugly heads many times throughout a day. Sure, maybe I don't necessarily speak it, but my heart thinks it and that in and of itself hurts my heart.
As I stated above, this heart of mine is filled up with so many things. And, yes, it causes me much unrest at times, because, my heart longs for what only Heaven can give. I suppose it's that thought..."what only Heaven can give" that keeps me pressing on. My heart knows there is that "place" where love, joy and peace will only live. My heart knows there is that "place" where my sinful heart will be no more and the perfect heart God originally planned for me will be intact. Oh, how I long for that "Place" .......HEAVEN! How I long to be rid of my sinful heart and possess those qualities I long for everyday!
My heart rejoices in this.....that my Savior, Jesus, came to die AND rise again for my sins.....for our sins. Yep, He did that. And His Word simply and clearly tells us this in John 3:16..."for God so loved
the world that He gave His One and only Son; that whoever believes in Him will not perish but will
have Eternal Life." And again in Romans 5:6 where it says, "you see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly." And this in 1 Thessalonians 4:14 where it says, "For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep."
Yes, I believe! My heart longs for what only He can give me. For now, I'll simply muddle through these stirrings and longings in my heart and continually seek after the One who helps me desire kindness and love.
