Reading one woman's story really touched me. She talks about the fear and anxiety that go along with any illness. The fear of not knowing what tomorrow holds. The fear and anxiety in having all the tests and then the fear and anxiety that is associated with the waiting for results. All legit and all understandable. She went on to say that one day the light bulb went on and she realized how she was wasting her days worrying. I remember that same light bulb going on. I remember realizing that I was wasting the days I was being given by worrying about what tomorrow held, and that, illness or not, none of us know when our time here on earth will be done.
God has taught me many things since my own breast cancer diagnosis. Many of the days were so very hard. Having no one to talk with about it, who understood my fear and sadness, made the days so lonely. Of course my husband, family and friends were always there, but that isn't the same as relating to someone else who was in the same shoes as you. However, looking back on those lonely days, I can now see how God used those days to draw me closer to Him.
Reflecting on all of this reminds me of what is truly important. My family, my friends and living life to the fullest. Living my life with goals, but not your typical goals. Goals like seeing the sunrise, hugging my grandkids as many times as I am able, saying "I love you" often, walking in the sunshine, sitting quietly appreciating what God has done for me, praying, singing to my hearts content and encouraging others in love.
God allows us here for a short time to love. The days truly do fly and one day He will call me Home. Nothing will I take with me. Just a soul that God loves.
Future plans?? Sort of. But my plans are simple. As I enjoy those simple goals I have listed, I do pray that God would continue to teach me to appreciate this life He has given to me and that He would bless me with a heart of wisdom for what really matters.
